First off, thank you so much for the comments and emails I've been receiving filled with support and prayers!! You guys are al so thoughtful and caring, THANKYOU!!
My mom is still drunk. Not much else to say. I cannot comprehend how a person could stay drunk for 16 days straight! I'm doing better emotionally, pretty much. No more bursting into tears. I'm just trying to carry on and keep on with my life, there are too many wonderful things going on to sit around and feel sad about a situation beyond my control.
I believe that if my mother pulls through this binge, my sister and I are going to attempt an intervention after Christmas. For some reason though, I can't shake the feeling that she's not going to come out of this one. I'm not sure if this is God's way of preparing me or if it's just a new phase of my dealing with this whole fiasco time after time.
Well, tomorrow is Halloween. The kids are excited, we allow the children to dress up and go trick or treating, all in fun. We were thinking of even stopping by the church as they are having a Halloween/Costume party, but we'll see how time prevails.
A brief update on the kids.........
Robbie: Robbie is doing fabulous doing the ECS/gr.1 program I designed for him. He also has been enjoying helping Alyssa out with her school work. He has been really enjoying going to his weekly session of Occupational/Physical therapy. After Christmas it look as though he will enter another session strictly for his speech.
Alyssa: Alyssa is showing herself to be quite a math lover!!! I have no idea where THAT came from!!LOL She is so easy to homeschool and is really loving it. Her reading and language comprehension has doubled in the past month (she was having difficulties due to the French immersion) Now she can read fluently in English and French. She's anxiously awaiting her loose tooth to fall out, it's at the 'hanging there' stage!!LOL
Kayla: kayla is enjoying doing the preschool I've set up for her. We've been working on numbers and letters and writing her name. She's doing really well and is very eager in the morning to sit at the table with her brothers and sister to do school!!
Mariah: Mariah has been a very busy bee lately!! She has suddenly begun to talk ALL the time, she's averaging about 2-3 new words a day and has even started with some small sentences!!! (ie; "Mommy, where are you?") She's walking all the time now and loves to climb! She's also teething some molars, but she's been a trooper!!
She's also following in her older sisters footsteps and showing interest in the potty!! Both the girls were completely trained between 20 and 24 months, but they both started at around this age.
Alex: Alex has been doing well, being is usual self!! We had his appointment on Friday and our family doctor is putting a referral for us to be seen by a child specialist to hopefully get a diagnosis. My doctor agreed that we're dealing with either ADD or Tourette's Syndrome or Tourettes with ADD. All of which I've pretty much known for quite awhile now. I'm leaning more towards the Tourettes based on his symptoms, but I most certainly will not rule out the ADD symptoms manifesting themselves in there as well. What will a diagnosis do for us? Not much really!! I don't plan on doing much different than what I've been doing all along. I guess we'll hear what the doctor has to say and go from there! I'm not completely against medication, but I'm not sure we'll go that route. We'll see!!
Bill: working hard as usual!! He's been much better though with being on the Paxil again. If anyone has suffered through Panic/Anxiety attacks, you know what I'm talking about. Praise the Lord, he hasn't had one for a number of weeks now!!! It's nice to see him getting back on track again.
Well, that's about it for now. I won't be on tomorrow night, but I'll aim for an update on Tuesday and fill you in on how the kids made out. Then when I get the pics developed, I'll post them as well!!
Take care everyone and God bless you all!!!
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Random thoughts
Please bear with me and this post, I'm looking through blurry eyes so hopefully the spellchecker will pick up and typos.
It's been an emotional rollercoaster these past few weeks and I think I finally hit the boiling point, the point where you just have to let it all out and the tears are flowing quite freely.
I really don't even know where to begin, my mom is on a binge again. After all the promises and the tiny bit of hope I held that she would actually mean it this time, it's all unraveled. Usually I just take it all and go with the flow, however this time it really stings. I can't even explain all the emotions, anger, hurt frustration, those are all a good start, but it's deeper and I can't quite pinpoint it. I guess I know deep down inside she's coming to an end, her body is dying and I can't stop it. No matter how much love I have in me for her and no matter how much I hope I try to have, I can't stop it. I couldn't save my dad and now I'm watching my mother accept the same fate. The only difference is my dads was quick, this is a slow and agonizing way to kill yourself. No matter how hard I try to rationalize the situation, I don't understand it. I look at the beautiful faces of my children and I cannot comprehend ever doing anything to hurt them, I guess it just shows the strength that alcohol can possess over someone. She was just here on the 14th and babysat for Bill and I while we went and watched a football game. She did all kinds of activities with the kids and returned home that night to drown herself in booze, and she is still there now. Yesterday was her 50th birthday and she spent alone and drunk. Of course I understand this is her own choice, I've overcome and type of guilt. That slipped away the day she held me by the throat because I had hidden her booze when I was 14. That was the first time I really realized the grip it had on her.
And just the week before that she was here too, she brought us all the fixings for our thanksgiving dinner as a surprise. I just don't know how this is going to end. It rips me apart to know that people out there are holding on for dear life, that they know how precious every day is and how cherished loved ones are. They know not to take one day for granted because in an instance, it's gone.
Here's my mother selfishly drinking each day away, knowing that her body is giving out. Knowing that her family loves her and that she has five grandchildren who adore her and another new grandbaby on the way. I feel so many different emotions all at once, it's crazy. She openly admits she's an alcoholic to me and my sister and even jokes about it, but I beginning to realize it's an attempt to cover it up as ridiculous as that sounds. It's a hard thing to swallow, knowing that someone you love is killing themselves as you stand by and watch. It's like being in a dream watching a horrible event unfold only to discover you are frozen in that one spot. Your mind is racing with all the things you should or could do, you even yell and scream, but it's all to no avail. Your words only fall on deaf ears. It's taken a long time to come to grips with the fact that I can't fix her, only she holds that power. Just as I had to come to terms after my father had died, I couldn't fix him either. God gave us freewill and how we choose to use that gift is up to us. He gave us that so we would go to Him and love Him, not because we should but because we went to Him of our own freewill. The only thing I can do is to pray for her, I pray that the Lord can forgive her for her sins and see that she is still a child of God and that she still has good in her, it's just clouded by shame and guilt and alcohol.
I've never understood what drives her to drink and I have a feeling I'll never know, I think that is a secret she will take to the grave. Do I want to know? Would I even understand? Probably not, I've thought of a dozen reasons that would drive me to the point to just give up and drown my sorrows, but I can always think of a dozen more not too. I thank God every day for that. I thank Him for loving me and giving me the strength to keep going even when satan is banging on my door. I'm scared. I'm terrified that I will be attending my mothers funeral very soon and there isn't a darn thing I can do about it. Everytime the phone rings, my heart skips a beat.
Well my nose is running and I really need a break. Thank you for listening. It's lonely to be engulfed in this type of pain. No one really knows what to say, especially me. It's usually just easier to isolate myself and concentrate on the kids and the house. I really hate to burden people with this, because in all honesty I feel stupid. Stupid because I fall for the story and the pleas and the vows everytime. But I guess I'm just naive and really try to believe what she is saying is the truth, then again, maybe it's just wishful thinking from the tiny shred of my heart that hopes one day, it just might be the truth. But that is dwindling and it hurts. My sister said all to well, it's like having someone die over and over and over again.
I'm really sorry to dump this all on here...............please keep us all in your prayers.
God bless you all.
It's been an emotional rollercoaster these past few weeks and I think I finally hit the boiling point, the point where you just have to let it all out and the tears are flowing quite freely.
I really don't even know where to begin, my mom is on a binge again. After all the promises and the tiny bit of hope I held that she would actually mean it this time, it's all unraveled. Usually I just take it all and go with the flow, however this time it really stings. I can't even explain all the emotions, anger, hurt frustration, those are all a good start, but it's deeper and I can't quite pinpoint it. I guess I know deep down inside she's coming to an end, her body is dying and I can't stop it. No matter how much love I have in me for her and no matter how much I hope I try to have, I can't stop it. I couldn't save my dad and now I'm watching my mother accept the same fate. The only difference is my dads was quick, this is a slow and agonizing way to kill yourself. No matter how hard I try to rationalize the situation, I don't understand it. I look at the beautiful faces of my children and I cannot comprehend ever doing anything to hurt them, I guess it just shows the strength that alcohol can possess over someone. She was just here on the 14th and babysat for Bill and I while we went and watched a football game. She did all kinds of activities with the kids and returned home that night to drown herself in booze, and she is still there now. Yesterday was her 50th birthday and she spent alone and drunk. Of course I understand this is her own choice, I've overcome and type of guilt. That slipped away the day she held me by the throat because I had hidden her booze when I was 14. That was the first time I really realized the grip it had on her.
And just the week before that she was here too, she brought us all the fixings for our thanksgiving dinner as a surprise. I just don't know how this is going to end. It rips me apart to know that people out there are holding on for dear life, that they know how precious every day is and how cherished loved ones are. They know not to take one day for granted because in an instance, it's gone.
Here's my mother selfishly drinking each day away, knowing that her body is giving out. Knowing that her family loves her and that she has five grandchildren who adore her and another new grandbaby on the way. I feel so many different emotions all at once, it's crazy. She openly admits she's an alcoholic to me and my sister and even jokes about it, but I beginning to realize it's an attempt to cover it up as ridiculous as that sounds. It's a hard thing to swallow, knowing that someone you love is killing themselves as you stand by and watch. It's like being in a dream watching a horrible event unfold only to discover you are frozen in that one spot. Your mind is racing with all the things you should or could do, you even yell and scream, but it's all to no avail. Your words only fall on deaf ears. It's taken a long time to come to grips with the fact that I can't fix her, only she holds that power. Just as I had to come to terms after my father had died, I couldn't fix him either. God gave us freewill and how we choose to use that gift is up to us. He gave us that so we would go to Him and love Him, not because we should but because we went to Him of our own freewill. The only thing I can do is to pray for her, I pray that the Lord can forgive her for her sins and see that she is still a child of God and that she still has good in her, it's just clouded by shame and guilt and alcohol.
I've never understood what drives her to drink and I have a feeling I'll never know, I think that is a secret she will take to the grave. Do I want to know? Would I even understand? Probably not, I've thought of a dozen reasons that would drive me to the point to just give up and drown my sorrows, but I can always think of a dozen more not too. I thank God every day for that. I thank Him for loving me and giving me the strength to keep going even when satan is banging on my door. I'm scared. I'm terrified that I will be attending my mothers funeral very soon and there isn't a darn thing I can do about it. Everytime the phone rings, my heart skips a beat.
Well my nose is running and I really need a break. Thank you for listening. It's lonely to be engulfed in this type of pain. No one really knows what to say, especially me. It's usually just easier to isolate myself and concentrate on the kids and the house. I really hate to burden people with this, because in all honesty I feel stupid. Stupid because I fall for the story and the pleas and the vows everytime. But I guess I'm just naive and really try to believe what she is saying is the truth, then again, maybe it's just wishful thinking from the tiny shred of my heart that hopes one day, it just might be the truth. But that is dwindling and it hurts. My sister said all to well, it's like having someone die over and over and over again.
I'm really sorry to dump this all on here...............please keep us all in your prayers.
God bless you all.
Tuesday, October 4, 2005
Relieved and thankful
PRAISE THE LORD!!!
MIL surgery went wonderfully, I don't have much else to report yet as I only briefly talked to FIL a couple of hours ago. I also wanted to clarify, I misunderstood partially about her surgery today. The one she had done today was just strictly to remove her abdomen excess, NOT for the actual hip surgery. They have to wait for her to heal from today's operation before they can proceed with the hip.
I am so relieved everything went so well and no complications arose. Now we must pray for her to heal quickly and easily. It look as though Bill and I will be going up on Friday night to visit her...YEAH!!!! I can't wait, I'm so excited as to what the future will be for her after all this is said and done. She has missed out on so many things and just the simple things that so many of us take for granted.
While I can only imagine the agony of being seriously over weight, I do know how outside influences can hurt. Both MIL have a lot in common, my dealing with keeping the weight ON and her keeping it OFF. People always making comments about how skinny I am and if I ever eat, to her the comments about her being fat and does she ever stop eating. Both her and I speak VERY openly to each other about this kind of stuff and have always remained very honest about it to each other. When I'm stressed I revert back to an old pattern of starving myself, whereas when she is stressed, she can't get enough food.
True, I rarely get laughed at in public (about my size anyways....other things...most likely LOL) where she had to deal with comments almost regularly and the snide remarks people would make thinking she couldn't hear them. It makes me so mad and disgusted at those ignorant folk. I guess it just makes me so upset because I know what she truly is and what a kind and generous, loving person she is.
Of course I forgive all of those who are intolerant of someone who is different than them, God knows best and He will show them at some point in their lives a lesson in humanity.
I remember when I was younger and lived at home, my mom used to take in severely handicapped children every second weekend for respite care. We had one little girl who had a cleft lip and a cleft palate as well as something called Trisomy 18 and had severe facial deformities. Let me tell you, she was the sweetest thing. So loving and just a beautiful spirit within. But, she was hard to look at for someone not used to this and lacking the ability to see past the misplaced nose and odd shaped eyes and webbed toes and fingers, and it used to tear me up inside when we would all go out on an excursion (we also had a Downs Syndrome girl, a little girl with Spina Bifida and a little girl with FAS as well as being Microcephalic(small head and brain) and some times we also had a little boy who had FAS as well)
I grew up with special needs children, so from ever since I can remember, I've always known that people are different on the outside, but if you take the time, they're wonderful individuals on the inside. So, when I'm around someone who doesn't see through the deformities or disability, I get frustrated. But God has placed it in my heart to forgive those who only see the outside, not everyone had the privilege to grow up as I did (yes, part of childhood truly has benefited me in adulthood!!!)
All of God's children come in different packages, God loves us all despite any imperfections or flaws we may have. I think we could all do with looking at the world through the Lord's eyes once in awhile and if you're lucky, you just might make someone's day and if you're really lucky, you might just make a new friend!!!
So please, if your out shopping and you see a person who is different, be it the color of their skin or the shape of their face or the way they walk or talk, remember what I said and take it to heart. Smile and say "Hi!" or offer a helping hand. Take the few seconds to stop and look at this person how Jesus would, you could make someone's day and you'll make your day too!!!
I remember a little while ago while I was grocery shopping and I had Mariah, Kayla and Alyssa with me. There was a man and a lady and they were with a man whom I'm guessing had Cerebal Palsy. He was so excited to see a baby and the couple were trying very hard to rush him away. I walked over with Mariah and asked him if he would like to say hello to her and his face lit up, as did Mariah's! He was such a kind man and was so tickled that she was smiling and chattering to him. Kayla and Alyssa both said hello too and the smile on his face was beyond words. The couple were shocked that I would take my baby anywhere near him!!! It's a moment that I hope he can remember for a long time, because I know I will.
My Dad always used to say, "All of God's children draw red blood if cut open" I didn't quite understand what it meant until I was older, and now I pass that down to my children.
I will post later if I hear back from FIL, until then, God bless you all, my brothers and sisters!!!
MIL surgery went wonderfully, I don't have much else to report yet as I only briefly talked to FIL a couple of hours ago. I also wanted to clarify, I misunderstood partially about her surgery today. The one she had done today was just strictly to remove her abdomen excess, NOT for the actual hip surgery. They have to wait for her to heal from today's operation before they can proceed with the hip.
I am so relieved everything went so well and no complications arose. Now we must pray for her to heal quickly and easily. It look as though Bill and I will be going up on Friday night to visit her...YEAH!!!! I can't wait, I'm so excited as to what the future will be for her after all this is said and done. She has missed out on so many things and just the simple things that so many of us take for granted.
While I can only imagine the agony of being seriously over weight, I do know how outside influences can hurt. Both MIL have a lot in common, my dealing with keeping the weight ON and her keeping it OFF. People always making comments about how skinny I am and if I ever eat, to her the comments about her being fat and does she ever stop eating. Both her and I speak VERY openly to each other about this kind of stuff and have always remained very honest about it to each other. When I'm stressed I revert back to an old pattern of starving myself, whereas when she is stressed, she can't get enough food.
True, I rarely get laughed at in public (about my size anyways....other things...most likely LOL) where she had to deal with comments almost regularly and the snide remarks people would make thinking she couldn't hear them. It makes me so mad and disgusted at those ignorant folk. I guess it just makes me so upset because I know what she truly is and what a kind and generous, loving person she is.
Of course I forgive all of those who are intolerant of someone who is different than them, God knows best and He will show them at some point in their lives a lesson in humanity.
I remember when I was younger and lived at home, my mom used to take in severely handicapped children every second weekend for respite care. We had one little girl who had a cleft lip and a cleft palate as well as something called Trisomy 18 and had severe facial deformities. Let me tell you, she was the sweetest thing. So loving and just a beautiful spirit within. But, she was hard to look at for someone not used to this and lacking the ability to see past the misplaced nose and odd shaped eyes and webbed toes and fingers, and it used to tear me up inside when we would all go out on an excursion (we also had a Downs Syndrome girl, a little girl with Spina Bifida and a little girl with FAS as well as being Microcephalic(small head and brain) and some times we also had a little boy who had FAS as well)
I grew up with special needs children, so from ever since I can remember, I've always known that people are different on the outside, but if you take the time, they're wonderful individuals on the inside. So, when I'm around someone who doesn't see through the deformities or disability, I get frustrated. But God has placed it in my heart to forgive those who only see the outside, not everyone had the privilege to grow up as I did (yes, part of childhood truly has benefited me in adulthood!!!)
All of God's children come in different packages, God loves us all despite any imperfections or flaws we may have. I think we could all do with looking at the world through the Lord's eyes once in awhile and if you're lucky, you just might make someone's day and if you're really lucky, you might just make a new friend!!!
So please, if your out shopping and you see a person who is different, be it the color of their skin or the shape of their face or the way they walk or talk, remember what I said and take it to heart. Smile and say "Hi!" or offer a helping hand. Take the few seconds to stop and look at this person how Jesus would, you could make someone's day and you'll make your day too!!!
I remember a little while ago while I was grocery shopping and I had Mariah, Kayla and Alyssa with me. There was a man and a lady and they were with a man whom I'm guessing had Cerebal Palsy. He was so excited to see a baby and the couple were trying very hard to rush him away. I walked over with Mariah and asked him if he would like to say hello to her and his face lit up, as did Mariah's! He was such a kind man and was so tickled that she was smiling and chattering to him. Kayla and Alyssa both said hello too and the smile on his face was beyond words. The couple were shocked that I would take my baby anywhere near him!!! It's a moment that I hope he can remember for a long time, because I know I will.
My Dad always used to say, "All of God's children draw red blood if cut open" I didn't quite understand what it meant until I was older, and now I pass that down to my children.
I will post later if I hear back from FIL, until then, God bless you all, my brothers and sisters!!!
Saturday, October 1, 2005
Overwhelmed, blessed and asking for prayer......
WHEW!
Have you ever had enough things go on in just a couple of days that feels like it should've been a week instead?
Well, that's been it here.
First, being overwhelmed. The middle of this week became a little too much for me emotionally. It was an extremely tight payday for Bill and I because of him missing a couple of days from work. I was not able to get groceries, which is a very bad thing around here. Not so much in the way of meat, but for bread and milk and 'fridge' stuff. I depend on this trip to re-stock the fresh stuff. I was so upset. Not to mention that next weekend is the Canadian Thanksgiving and I wasn't going to be able to buy a turkey!! My children LOVE thanksgiving and it's a big deal to them, they all love stuffing the turkey and all the fixings. We set the table special and use the 'good' dishes and share what we are thankful for. I was SO devastated that I wouldn't be able to share that with them this year. It broke my mama heart, and the look on their faces when I told them that we wouldn't be having a turkey this year and that I wasn't sure I'd be able to get any groceries for at least a couple of weeks. UGH!
BUT!!! On Thursday night the children and I prayed and prayed and prayed for God's will to be done, I explained that we would still celebrate Thanksgiving and that is what God would want us to do!!
Bill and I decided to make use of the Interfaith Food bank (shhh, Bill would be upset if I shared that, if you know us in real life, please don't comment)before he went I prayed for God to please send food items we REALLY needed and if He felt led, if he could please send us some stuff to celebrate Thanksgiving.
I had a couple specific requests that I asked the Lord for (diapers for Mariah, cheeze whiz for Robbie, yogurt for all the kids and lot's of nutritious bread.)
We have such a loving Lord, my friends. He is so good. The Lord sent us 12 four packs of our absolute favorite yogurt, as well as 6 containers of our second favorite yogurt. He sent us 8 loaves of whole wheat bread. He sent us diapers for mariah and a 1kg jar of cheeze whiz!!!!Included was enough ingredients for to make all of our favorite side dishes, and everything needed to make apple and pumpkin pie. Hotdog buns to go with the hotdogs I had in my freezer. Potatoes, fresh garden lettuce, sandwich meat and milk and eggs!!! What a blessing!!!!
Then, I talked to my mom and she is a part of a produce co-op and receives a 35lb box of produce every month. Amazingly, there was a 40lb box of produce that was extra, so the people left it on her doorstep for her to bring to us!!! How neat is that???? They know she has 5 grandkids and they said they would love for us to have it!!! WOW!!!!
Then, Bill's parents are in town for MIL's operation (more about that below) we went to visit them today and she surprised me a birthday card and tucked inside was $20.00!! Enough to buy a TURKEY!!!! I also have a bit of money left over from a government check (GST. The rest has to cover my curriculum costs and Bill's vehicle registration) so I can get us our sparkling cranberry juice that we drink with thanksgiving and some coolwhip for the pies as well as some pie shells!!!
So you see, God provided in ways that I never imagined and what started out do bleak, became wonderful. I've just been sitting here truly amazed and feeling so tremendously blessed and in awe at the love of our Lord.
Praise be to the Lord!!!!
Now for my prayer request.
My MIL, 'W' is in town for very serious surgery. She has been walking around for the past 2 years with a severely broken hip, it has become completely removed for the joint and the only thing keeping it somewhat attatched is the pins she had in place from years ago when she broke it the first time. Not only is she having hip surgery, she is also having approx 50-60lbs removed for her gut area. You see, W is very obese and is approx 300-350lbs (I'm estimating here) overweight. Her health isn't the greatest, but she is finally well enough to undergo the surgery.
She is very anxious/excited and scared. She usually doesn't handle anesthetic that well, so this operation carries so many risks, but the risks are worth taking.
She is scheduled for the surgery on Tuesday Oct.5th, not sure of the time yet.
Please keep her in you prayers if you feel led, this is a wonderful woman who has been in excruciating pain for a number of years. She has not been able to walk on her own for quite sometime and has had to use a motorized scooter to get around.
please pray the Lord will watch over her and guide the doctors hands with care and skill. That she will handle the anesthetic and there will be no complications. That the surgery will be successful and she will heal quickly. That the cellulitis will not cause any grief before, during and after surgery.
We have a wonderful, loving God and He will prevail!!!!
I would also like to ask for prayer for another special family, our extended family. Shellie was in a car accident on the 16th, praise the Lord she is okay, however she is suffering from sever whiplash and has been in a lot of pain. There is also a lot of complications regarding the man who hit her (she was rear-ended) regarding insurance and his lack of it. This is causing a great deal of stress on them. Please pray for relief, in all areas of this for them. We love them very much, and we're so sorry that they're going through all this.
Now, I'm off to enjoy the ever-so-tasty popsicles we were blessed with, as I snuggle up on the couch with all of my most precious blessings of all!!!!
Have a blessed Lord's day and a wonderful evening!!!
God bless,
~Penny
Have you ever had enough things go on in just a couple of days that feels like it should've been a week instead?
Well, that's been it here.
First, being overwhelmed. The middle of this week became a little too much for me emotionally. It was an extremely tight payday for Bill and I because of him missing a couple of days from work. I was not able to get groceries, which is a very bad thing around here. Not so much in the way of meat, but for bread and milk and 'fridge' stuff. I depend on this trip to re-stock the fresh stuff. I was so upset. Not to mention that next weekend is the Canadian Thanksgiving and I wasn't going to be able to buy a turkey!! My children LOVE thanksgiving and it's a big deal to them, they all love stuffing the turkey and all the fixings. We set the table special and use the 'good' dishes and share what we are thankful for. I was SO devastated that I wouldn't be able to share that with them this year. It broke my mama heart, and the look on their faces when I told them that we wouldn't be having a turkey this year and that I wasn't sure I'd be able to get any groceries for at least a couple of weeks. UGH!
BUT!!! On Thursday night the children and I prayed and prayed and prayed for God's will to be done, I explained that we would still celebrate Thanksgiving and that is what God would want us to do!!
Bill and I decided to make use of the Interfaith Food bank (shhh, Bill would be upset if I shared that, if you know us in real life, please don't comment)before he went I prayed for God to please send food items we REALLY needed and if He felt led, if he could please send us some stuff to celebrate Thanksgiving.
I had a couple specific requests that I asked the Lord for (diapers for Mariah, cheeze whiz for Robbie, yogurt for all the kids and lot's of nutritious bread.)
We have such a loving Lord, my friends. He is so good. The Lord sent us 12 four packs of our absolute favorite yogurt, as well as 6 containers of our second favorite yogurt. He sent us 8 loaves of whole wheat bread. He sent us diapers for mariah and a 1kg jar of cheeze whiz!!!!Included was enough ingredients for to make all of our favorite side dishes, and everything needed to make apple and pumpkin pie. Hotdog buns to go with the hotdogs I had in my freezer. Potatoes, fresh garden lettuce, sandwich meat and milk and eggs!!! What a blessing!!!!
Then, I talked to my mom and she is a part of a produce co-op and receives a 35lb box of produce every month. Amazingly, there was a 40lb box of produce that was extra, so the people left it on her doorstep for her to bring to us!!! How neat is that???? They know she has 5 grandkids and they said they would love for us to have it!!! WOW!!!!
Then, Bill's parents are in town for MIL's operation (more about that below) we went to visit them today and she surprised me a birthday card and tucked inside was $20.00!! Enough to buy a TURKEY!!!! I also have a bit of money left over from a government check (GST. The rest has to cover my curriculum costs and Bill's vehicle registration) so I can get us our sparkling cranberry juice that we drink with thanksgiving and some coolwhip for the pies as well as some pie shells!!!
So you see, God provided in ways that I never imagined and what started out do bleak, became wonderful. I've just been sitting here truly amazed and feeling so tremendously blessed and in awe at the love of our Lord.
Praise be to the Lord!!!!
Now for my prayer request.
My MIL, 'W' is in town for very serious surgery. She has been walking around for the past 2 years with a severely broken hip, it has become completely removed for the joint and the only thing keeping it somewhat attatched is the pins she had in place from years ago when she broke it the first time. Not only is she having hip surgery, she is also having approx 50-60lbs removed for her gut area. You see, W is very obese and is approx 300-350lbs (I'm estimating here) overweight. Her health isn't the greatest, but she is finally well enough to undergo the surgery.
She is very anxious/excited and scared. She usually doesn't handle anesthetic that well, so this operation carries so many risks, but the risks are worth taking.
She is scheduled for the surgery on Tuesday Oct.5th, not sure of the time yet.
Please keep her in you prayers if you feel led, this is a wonderful woman who has been in excruciating pain for a number of years. She has not been able to walk on her own for quite sometime and has had to use a motorized scooter to get around.
please pray the Lord will watch over her and guide the doctors hands with care and skill. That she will handle the anesthetic and there will be no complications. That the surgery will be successful and she will heal quickly. That the cellulitis will not cause any grief before, during and after surgery.
We have a wonderful, loving God and He will prevail!!!!
I would also like to ask for prayer for another special family, our extended family. Shellie was in a car accident on the 16th, praise the Lord she is okay, however she is suffering from sever whiplash and has been in a lot of pain. There is also a lot of complications regarding the man who hit her (she was rear-ended) regarding insurance and his lack of it. This is causing a great deal of stress on them. Please pray for relief, in all areas of this for them. We love them very much, and we're so sorry that they're going through all this.
Now, I'm off to enjoy the ever-so-tasty popsicles we were blessed with, as I snuggle up on the couch with all of my most precious blessings of all!!!!
Have a blessed Lord's day and a wonderful evening!!!
God bless,
~Penny
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